First of all,
Fuck you.
Make up your mind about shit, girl. I love you so much, friend, but you need to decide who you want in your life and who you don’t. Now you’re saying that this asshole who basically only befriended you because of some “connections” and then turned around and left you wants to be your friend again. You’ve given him too many chances and he’s wrecked them all. You’re putting yourself in situations that aren’t logical. Or healthy. I worry about you. The fact that you cry yourself to sleep sometimes really disrupts my day. And I wish I could help you.
Everything you told me about all these people who’ve hurt you make me want to go and push them in a ditch or something, and yet you. keep. taking. them. back.
You’re like a washrag. And they just keep using you and using you until someday, you’ll be all worn out and they’ll find someone new.
I care so much about you.
But please make up your mind about it. About everything. About our friendship. About your trust issues. About giving others second chances, when clearly, they are undeserved.
Think before you do things or say them.
But most of all, love yourself. There are so many people out there that care about you. And whoever is reading this, wherever you are, accept yourself. If you look inside your heart and you don’t like what you see, change it. Become a better person. Do something about it. It’s not the easiest thing in the world - believe me, I’ve not yet reached the person I’d love to become. But I can tell you one thing: the first step is to love yourself.