I hate how we fight every day over pointless things that make no sense. we broke up - that doesnt mean you get to stomp on me every chance you get just to take out all your hurt. you make up things in your head to get mad at me over, and insist they are true when they aren’t. you start fights over assumptions .
and every single time i am the one apologizing- over pointless or non existent mistakes, etc. sometimes i get so fed up and i tell myself its YOU that has to say sorry this time. and then 5 minutes later i cave in because i love you too much to wait and see if you actually do. i guess im weak. i guess i DO let you push me around.
right now, im apologizing for overreacting… how can one be overreacting when someone is saying ‘im not going to ever talk to u again bye’ over a false assumption that is not only pointless and stupid , but untrue in the first place?! why am i letting this happen? i guess i always let him win if that means he is in my life still. i dont know what id do without him, and sometimes ithink i just deal with it bc i know if he wasnt around id be bored 10x more than i already am, bc i wouldnt have him to hang out with… i guess that sounds pretty foolish.